the killer was in

30. Two of my insecurities. 

Picked at random: I hate being as skinny as I am. It’s a self confidence issue, and you’ll occasionally see me wearing shirts that look about a size too small because every now and then I won’t be able to deal with how small my arms look in sleeves on shirts that actually fit me.  
The second is that sometimes I hate to think people confuse my difficulty in displaying and conveying heartfelt emotion as a lack of caring. I care a lot, about everything and everyone dear to me, I just become a shy boy when it comes to saying it. Then I feel bad.

31. What would I do if I won the lottery. 

Put half my money away in a well researched high interest account. Use a fair percentage of the rest to buy and run a house, maybe a business. Wait. Then, when the interest has earned me back a decent sum of money, just take out the interest. Repeat. Live a good life.